We had two bags of grass, seventy-five pellets of mescaline, five sheets of high-powered blotter acid, a saltshaker half-full of cocaine, and a whole galaxy of multi-colored uppers, downers, screamers, laughers... Also, a quart of tequila, a quart of rum, a case of beer, a pint of raw ether, and two dozen amyls. Not that we needed all that for the trip, but once you get into locked a serious drug collection, the tendency is to push it as far as you can. The only thing that really worried me was the ether. There is nothing in the world more helpless and irresponsible and depraved than a man in the depths of an ether binge, and I knew we'd get into that rotten stuff pretty soon.
I told a friend I loved him today and it came out free and easy. It has never been an easy thing for me to tell someone I love them. Especially to express it out loud and in public. Awkward doesn’t even begin to describe it. Usually I’ll say something like, “You’re great.” And then give them a little punch in the arm. Yeah. I hope it gets easier.
Yeah, so I’m kinda in a crappy mood. It’s probably about 90 degrees in my apartment right now and the fan pulling in the cool air isn’t helping and there is no way for me to turn off or regulate the heat. It’s quite unbearable. Also at work we have a new system and two night this week it’s frozen up on me and I’ve missed my bus home. Thankfully I was able to find a ride, but my manager sent my call to voicemail. Not cool. And then I get home and my Dunkin Donuts order is all wrong. Too many of one kind and not the right kind of another. :( I just wanted to be able to enjoy something today. And it’s my friends birthday and I didn’t get to go out either night to help him celebrate. Lastly, I’m broke which means I probably won’t get to see Ghostface tomorrow after work. *hmph, sucks being an adult*
“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.
A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.
A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”
”—Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman’s Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia) (via kari-shma) (via quote-book) (via lovebot)
…on my way home tonight a dude followed me off the bus and towards my building and then backtrack to my neighbors building when I backtracked too. Then he disappeared. FREAKY! Thankfully I was able to get a friend on the phone to talk to while I made my way home to safety. Now it’s time to cook. Yum.